In Wish I Still Smoked Cigarettes, I wrote that Ronnie Dunn is speaking to where I am in life – maybe because we’re both in the same place.

But in Heart Letting Go, Ronnie speaks to where I was in the 90s during his early days with Brooks & Dunn. When I was intent on escaping a bad marriage and start my life over. That even when you desperately want out of a relationship, it’s still a death of a life you once knew.

It’s not easy letting go of the old, especially when you’re leaving for the unknown. No wonder many people don’t leave until they have a new place to go to. In fact, my mother said something like that.

It wasn’t easy leaving when he threw himself on the floor and cried as I was packing up to leave. Thankfully, I had a good friend in the Bay Area who’d been through it all before – how hers cried as the Bekins moving truck pulled up to move her stuff to Palm Springs. She’d warned me about all the tricks – the brief reconciliation and how that doesn’t work because they’ll make you pay. Doesn’t mean I didn’t make the same mistakes she did, but I was able to recover faster.

Stepping out into the unknown is scary but, for me, it was oh so rewarding. Those exciting emotional days of leaving the old life behind and grabbing onto the new. Thinking about what I wanted next. Looking around. Trying a few things. Men at work. Country dancing. Setting my sights on “the one.” The religious conversion we experienced together. Our beautiful Orthodox wedding. Yeah, this song brings back all of those emotional memories.

Behind every song is a story – the songwriter’s story and the listener’s story – that’s what music is all about.

Heart Letting Go – video

Heart Letting Go – lyrics (brilliant!)

I don’t see the same look in your eyes
the one that used to say we’re meant to be
and I can’t feel the hunger in your touch
that used to tell me I’m all you need

It’s hard to stay
the leaving hurts
and I’m not sure which one is the worst
cuz tonight I hold the love I used to know
and listen to the heart letting go

Just how long its been I can’t recall
since I felt the warmth of your kiss
and all the little things you used to do
are all the things that I already miss

It’s hard to stay
the leaving hurts
and I’m not sure which one is the worst
cuz tonight I hold the love I used to know
and listen to a heart letting go

When you decide to say goodbye
how am I supposed to live without
I don’t know
don’t know why I’m holding on
we both know that you’re already gone

It’s hard to stay
the leaving hurts
and I’m not sure which one is the worst
cuz tonight I hold the love I used to know
and listen to a heart letting go

Oh tonight I hold the love I used to know
and listen to a heart letting go

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